During his appearance on Today this morning, John Cena addressed his recent breakup with fellow WWE colleague Nikki Bella which you can read below or watch above. What do we think, work, shoot, or mix of both?
“It’s been incredibly reflective, which has been amazing, but it’s been very difficult. I had my heart broken out of nowhere – or for me it was out of nowhere – and anyone who’s been through that knows it comes with a series of bad feelings. But I’ve looked at myself everyday and the woman that I love, and for anyone out there speculating on what I’m doing with my life now? I still love Nicole, I still would love to marry Nicole, I still would love to have a family with Nicole – there was an unfortunate set of circumstances where our relationship ended, um, there’s been a lot of speculation recently about me being seen in public and everyone’s thinking ‘oh, John Cena’s enjoying the single life.’ No. I was supposed to be married and have a honeymoon over these two weeks, it’s the first time in 15 years that I’ve taken a vacation, I am in my house alone surrounded by these emotional strong memories and every day from 6 – 9, I get out of the house and talk to strangers as social interaction. So there’s a lot of pictures of me like [makes thumbs up gesture], hey, I’m here with this person or I’m here with this person…
I don’t want anybody else, I want Nicole and I’m really trying to support her in her trying to find whatever it is she wants that made this fall apart in the first place, and in doing so I’m also just trying to live. But I don’t have any other hopes, other than one day maybe we can work it out.
This is all difficult, and she’ll talk to you guys on Wednesday and I don’t want to say things she’s going to say, because I don’t know the importance of that, but over the five years of our relationship or the six years of our relationship, if you look at me five years ago, stubborn, selfish, self-focused, life had always been about me. Then slowly over time this woman waltzes in and just steals my heart and whether I want to realize it or not, she becomes my number one. So I’m willing to go back on all these things I say, and a lot of them I was hanging on to just of stubbornness – ‘I won’t have kids’. And it took a very strong look in the mirror for me to be like, ‘why?’ This person is my number one and its something that’s very valuable to her and of course we can do this and I think it would be wonderful. Granted, I’m often a horrible communicator when it comes to stuff like that, like I say the wrong thing – and I think guys out there know what I’m talking about… but all of that switched because I love her. And all of those decisions, like she’s my number one. I just want to make her happy and – that’s okay, because right now, she’s happy. And we want to talk about taking one for the team and really sucking it up – she I guess needed a little time to find whatever it is she’s looking for, and at the risk of my own emotional well being, especially so close to that moment of ‘I do’, she needs to be happy.
We do [still talk]. It’s difficult because I want her to be able to chase what she’s looking for and I feel as if I’m there, I may be enabling the situation, but those are like weird assumptions – it’s all messed up, guys! It’s a relationship – it’s all messed up. The point is, for anyone out there speculating on what’s going on, I love her, I want to be with her, I want to make her my wife, I want to be the father of her children – I just want us to work. And that’s so just from here [puts hand on heart]. All that other stuff you see is b-s, I’m just trying to live life without her on a very emotional set of time that’s been very difficult for me.
This is what I want to do, because if you’re watching like this [wipes tear from his eye] or watching shaking your fist, I think the greatest takeaway from all this, I really do – I know for a fact that I was in love. And I’ve never been in love before, and I’m telling you out there – it’s real, it’s horrible, it’s beautiful and I hurt so much because I know it was there and it was real and everyday I take that and I have that and if I never have another day with Nicole, I will take six years with Nicole over five years and 364 days any day of the week. And I’m so grateful, and if she’s watching, I’m grateful for being able to stand by your side for six years. And that’s what should make you smile.
So we’re good… we hit that in six minutes, now let’s move on to some fun stuff. Let’s do this.”
Season three of Total Bellas is due to air this coming Sunday, May 20 on E!
