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Tommy Dreamer considered shooting Paul Heyman before taking his own life at Wrestlemania

Tommy Dreamer

The world of professional wrestling can be very cruel and merciless at times and it pushes some performers over the edge. This is what happened to Tommy Dreamer, as he almost committed murder.

During a recent House Of Hardcore podcast, Tommy Dreamer talked about the extent to which his depression worsened. He went into detail and revealed that he could have brought a gun to the stadium due to Texas’ lax gun laws and he considered shooting Paul Heyman in the head in front of millions of fans, before taking his own life, at Wrestlemania 17 in Houston.

When ECW went out of business I was 29 years old. I had a lot of my money, my parents’ money, trying to float the company. Paul Heyman, who I thought me and him were super tight, he screwed me over big time. He was in the WWE, the whole time. I had turned down hundreds of thousands of dollars to go to WCW. And now was unemployed. I went from a $750,000 offer, and Paul Heyman crying to me, that if I leave ECW, it will go out of business. Meanwhile, he was getting a paycheck from WWE. I don’t begrudge him, but then I did. I was depressed as depressed can be. I had women, I had fame, I had everything and yet it was the worst time of my life. It really was. I was doing indies, making decent money on the indies. But, I lived at home…

This is crazy for me to admit it, but I am doing it for a reason, just like I admitted to other things previously. Wrestlemania Houston (X7) Paul Heyman told me I was going to debut. All this stuff, when they had TLC and Spike Dudley came in, and Rhyno came in, and Lita came in. That was supposed to be my spot and then uh, that got ixnayed. Then there was gonna be a hardcore 24/7 thing, that was gonna be “all about you”. That was when I was supposed to debut. I remember I did a show there, and I saw a sign that said “Guns Welcome” and I was in Houston. I did an indie show, and I said: “What is this?” I’m from New York, what do you mean “Guns Welcome?” and they said “Oh you are allowed to bring a firearm into the venue.

I was across the street from the Astrodome. When I tell you it resonated in my head so, so much. That I’ll tell you what I wanted to do. It’s sick that I think this. At Wrestlemania, I was gonna hop the rail and I was gonna whack Paul E. in the back of the head right at the announce table, then I was gonna whack myself. The ultimate martyr, I was gonna hit my pose crack, boom, pull the trigger. Because I was that insane.

Don’t know if I would have went through with it, but that’s what I was thinking about every day. I was like “I will go down in history.” Pop, boom. First, they’d think it as an angle until I shot him. I was so severely depressed and so mental with rage, I needed help. That help came from a phone call from Jim Ross. Randomly I get a phone call from a number I didn’t know… I didn’t pick up, and I remember having these thoughts, and it was bad. I had a gun, I was psssh man. Could you think about the horribleness that I would have done for my legacy?

I would have ruined Wrestlemania, which I love Wrestlemania. For everybody. These thoughts were so so crazed in my head. How dare that person, he screwed my parents over and I come from a mobster mentality. In my head, I was like “I would become infamous.” Which is famous for the wrong reason. I’m glad I didn’t do it. But when that phone call came from Jim Ross. Again, just said leave a message. It said “Hey Tommy it’s Jim Ross, just want to let you know, we are still thinking about you, we are gonna get it done, just got to hang tight. Thank you.

Think of how stupid I would have been, how dumb and how messed up my thoughts would have been if they would have come to fruition. I am so happy I didn’t do it, I am so happy that I did get that phone call, from someone who was a stranger, I barely knew the guy. There was another day, there has been a lot of other days.

Thankfully, it did not go that way and Tommy Dreamer did not go through what he intended to do. Depression is a very serious issue and it can push people to go to lengths they never would have.

h/t to for the transcription.

  • Soulshroude

    Who says anything about sneaking weapons? WWe personnel do it all the time.

  • Rinn13

    I like how my original comment wasn’t approved by the “mods” around here, even though it didn’t say anything particularly bad or crass. But hey, that’s just them being good at their jobs, right?

    Regardless, while I fully understand depression and anger and even violent thoughts, Dreamer saying “he’s glad he didn’t do it” is perhaps the greatest understatement in wrestling history. He would have been more reviled a figure than Benoit. He would have ruined and stopped dead WM17, which young me was watching on PPV. They couldn’t have finished that show after an incident like that. WWE would have been heavily damaged by such horrific actions, and many fans, myself included, may very well have not been able to bring themselves to watch wrestling again after such an awful, traumatizing thing. I’m forever glad I didn’t get to watch the PPV Owen Hart (basically) died at. But this would have been so very much worse.

  • Keith Learmonth

    That would’ve turned one of the best WM’s of all time into by far, the worst.

    I feel bad for Tommy that his situation got that bad.

  • Sparti Love

    Of course you made decent money but still lived at home.. You’re from NY.. It’s too expensive to do anything there. I lived at home until I was 30, got married has moved down to GA.

  • KalEl

    This was way back in the day guy. Not to mention it was texas where texas laws allowed people to carry weapons into venues without question. He wouldnt have been stopped cause it was allowed

  • Darrin Tyler


  • oppa

    They do. If you watch swerve, they have security and metal detectors at the door for talent.

  • Luke

    Dreamer would have been one of the crowd though. He wasn’t on the show

  • Whistling Joe

    That’s for the crowd. They might not have the same protocol for the boys.

  • J.B.

    Every WWE event I’ve been to uses metal detectors before you enter the venue. You can’t sneak in any weapons.

  • Soulshroude

    You do know that you just gave some idiot an idea regarding some future event?